Whatever happens

     Whatever happens tomorrow, I just want to say to you that, I did my best. 

     You do not know my person. Hell, even I who am myself still is in the talking stage, I don't yet know who I am. I only perceive myself as Iñigo, A Musician, A Scholar, A Football Player, A Writer, A Son, and A Friend. I have read lots and watched even more. 

      I have had friends though I can only count with my fingers how many I wished I knew better. If only they asked me out, I am still the chasing INTP turned farce playing ENTJ. I wished I wasn't a Commander according to MBTI because it is the Inspector that I wish to assimilate. But most of all, I want to be a saint, a friend of God and of my brothers men.

     I wished I lived a life full of integrity, teeming with the passion of a full-blown Freddie Mercury but loyal to one's calling as the Batman was to Gotham. I wish. I hope I need not of wishes. For it is not wishing that we get to beat the genie. So be it, he gets locked in his kettle, that was meant to be. He helps us in dire need. But, I wished I lived a life wherein I made the best choices.

    Why am I in an introspection this early in the day. I have a tryout just a few hours away. Anxiety, nervousness mixed with anticipation and excitement fuels my thoughts. I hope I'm not on nitro in this life's autobahn. I hope I get in. I dreamt of this since high school. To play in the big leagues, is that too high a dream. All I ask now, is one shot for the final verse of my high school glory hunting. A final verse that says "we did it."